MrColgate (:

2010-12-06T01:02:00.000+08:00

i come to your grave everyday...
to talk to you.
people tell me you can't hear me because your gone.
i just tell them you might be gone in their eyes but not in mine
because your still in my heart
and you will always be...

i cry when i think of you
but people ask me why....
i just tell them
how i feel about you and that
i still love you and that
and i miss you so much..

But people just tell me
there is no point
in still loving you
because your gone
and you will never be coming back
and i agree with them

you are gone
but you will never
be forgotten and one day
we will meet again
i promise.....

i pray to God every night
asking him to keep you safe
and i talk to him about meeting you again

i wanted to kill myself
just so i could see your face again in HEAVEN
but then i knew you wouldn't want me to do that
i try to be happy
but i can't when i
know that i won't
hear your voice for a long time

i always thought i could live without you
but i really feel i can't
i never thought you would have left me
my mum say you never left me,
God just needed an angel
i ask God can i be her next angel so i can be with you...
but he never replies

i even ask God,WHY...
why did he have to take you
and make me feel hurt so much
i don't think anyone really knows how
much it hurts to be missing you
i hate you not being around

i wish i could even see you one last time...
so i could say goodbye
no one understands me anymore
no one understands that i will always love you..
i never knew this would have happened

NO ONE DID...
i wish that...
that i could look back on the good times with you
but that has all gone
everything has change
and even thinking about it makes me want to cry
cry so much...
but my mum tells me not to cry
she told,you were looking over me and you wouldn't
want me to cry...
i tell her i'm sorry
all i can do is...cry...
she told me i could look back
at the good memories

but i said i can't do
that without her
because i need her to be with me
while we look back
and then she says why
so i replied i need
to see her smile and
feel her touch while
we smile together and look at the good memories
then mum said,why don't you tell me and her the good memories
but then i tell her i wish i could tell HER
she told me i can because you will always be there with me
then she said you would never give up on me cos you love me to much
and i love you....

PS: i promise i will find a new replace in my heart. No one could replace HER.♥

2010-08-01T09:45:00.004+08:00

Life have been so complicated for me. what i need is a prefect map to walk my journey in my life. everything seem like a battlefield now. what i need to face is just a War that doesn't seem to stop and my world will not gonna be peace. Maybe i am the one who make things such so complicated. Relationship?! i just need to wake up and deeply understand the meaning of that. But what i see is there's nothing got to chance in my relationship. Maybe im worry for no reason. Due to lack of spending time and seem to understand each other. What is happening is Jealousy and Complaint for others. That's the main problem i will always be facing. but nothing seem to overcome or change. Days by weeks,things keep the same. im stuck and i can't get myself out. i just wanna being myself. Whom i socialize and share my joy with. Maybe the expectation is high enough,that i myself easily get bored.I miss mixing around and meeting new friends.Laughter and Smiling super wide is always been a routine for me.but i just feel that,its gone for a moment. People keep asking me.Fiee why u change after having someone in your life. i told them that ,i wanna be the best boyfriend for my girlfriend. truly they supported me to the fullest. Weeks by weeks.And even months.always facing the same old thing. im not accepting more. but there's nothing new coming up for me. Maybe your life and mine is far too different. You got 7 times more socialize then me. Sometimes i have to lie just to meet my friends. everytime i meet them, you will give me that unhappy emotion and make me the most guilty boyfriend for you. sometimes you just push things over the limit that i even can't take it anymore. but i endure and always be patience just to keep myself strong in relationship. Cos i don't wanna repeat the same old things and end up with regret. Being regret is the most painful thing for me. Yeah! sometimes i club, this is all because im stress with my life. i know there's many solution i can do. But the solution is my friends who i need to make me strong in my relationship. But u put a guide line that i feel so tangle and can't get myself through it. Yeah! its true fiee is so emotion. Emotion that he even doesn't want to make his relationship affected by his own mistake. but you push it over the limit. i have been repeating tons of times to you. and you told me that you would understand my needs. But when i need it, you just think about yourself. When u told me,who i am to you. and i proudly announce and declare to you that,Im Your Boyfriend. When i was just by your side, nothing seem special but a deep hurts to myself. do u know that i treasure every meet-up? maybe you doesn't concern about that. i feel so paranoid getting back to camp for 6 days. and meet u for just ones a week. further more if i got stuff in my camp. 2 weeks meet up. I just feel like a prisoner without love. maybe i make u suffered. but then remember my love won't change. Till now u still have that awkward feelings towards me. i only get a HUG, 2 months ones. 3 to 4 months of a prefect kiss?! i doesn't feel so much till now. i miss those moment in our first 2 months. i told you before everything is prefect for the first 2 months. *suffering*

2010-07-04T02:16:00.003+08:00

OMG! a few days and my birthday is coming... i need that as my gift. MUMMY <3

PS: am i the one who make things complicated?

2010-06-06T03:57:00.003+08:00

Last week saturday was Awesome!
Get to spend time with my love's family. walk around vivo and shopping some stuff. cos my dear is looking for her Vans shoes. they meet her parent to accompany them to Giant to buy some stuff there. walk around and round with the trolley and end up but small little stuff. what a cute groceries shops. HAHAHAH! i miss those moment. make me smile a laugh all the way. after that, we when to geylang to eat some durian. HAHAHAH! have been so long never taste and smell of durian. we eat till late night. den home sweet home. back to camp and start to miss my girlfriend.

Last monday.. i have sucha crucial day and full of misunderstand between myself and her. i just feel im weird to control everything all by my own. but everything end just have to end that way. i doesn't have any choice to let her go. just for the sick of my beloved girlfriend. im doing this for the sick of love. you are the only exception for me. i cant even sleep for days keep thinking about that. but i apologies for everything i've did that make things so complicated. i just wanna make u feel so comfortable as we used to be. cos what i know everything we go through doesnt worth me.

now i have one and only love. and im truly falling in love with her. not one but only with my one and only Suyanti Andi. she bring a smile face and sad face to me. but everything seem simple and sweet. we always have this misunderstanding happen. but we make it through everything. cos both of us love each other deeply. and we doesnt want to lose each other as well. HAHAHAH! i know that for sure.

as i wake up in the morning. mummy call me and she wanna have a small talk with me. so i sit beside her and talk about it. first question mum pop up to me was..." are u in love." i was so shock and i declare myself a yes. mum wanna see her one and only son happy. cos i have been going through such a hard time during my past. mum truly understand me so well. mum knows that i will deeply in love with my past love. but mum told me just move on cos she wont be coming back to me even though i cry with a blood tears dropping down my cheeks. i told mum i need time for all this. im choosing the best for myself. mum told me she don't mine her son having so many girls as long u are sincere and loyal to them. don't ever put the family name down. i promise her that i won't do such a thing like that. so after mum saw titi.. mum accept her as my official gf nw. im happy got the bless from my both parents. even suyanti parents too. and mum told me not to be so choosy cos being so choosy and have that selfish feelings will lose your love ones. i will always remember every words spoke by my mum. I LOVE U MUM! <3

Suyanti drop by my place.and wait til im ready to go out. hahahah! im fucking lazy wait till the person reach den i siap. HAHAHAH! pantat i know! mum told me that im so pampered at times. so titi bought for me a DKNY boxer. how cute she can be. I LOVE HER <3

heading to beach road cos i need to buy my army field camp stuff. and head to downtown for chalet. chilling there for a moment and left home. meet my BFF and have supper at bukit batok.and home sweet home. IMYSM <3

PS: KISS

2010-05-23T15:19:00.003+08:00

last night was a late booked out. due to my fault. i've learn my lesson i guess. ):
Suyanti send me home after my booked out. chilled at my place and talk crap with my parents. mummy scolded me due to i never take good care of Suyanti. mum advise me to be more responsible in relationship and give equal love to her and family. i gonna booked in ,in a few hours time. so even though i get to meet my gf for a short moment. i do treasure every single second of my time even though i do really feel hectic at times due to intensive training in camp. (: got to meet Nur Kaseh at bedok but she doesnt recognize me at all. poor fiee

PS: Suyanti Andi ♥

2010-05-15T05:52:00.003+08:00

i start to miss every single friends of mine.
i miss them everytime im away from my beloved lappy.
due to serving my horrible nightmare National Service.
frankly! i hate being serving like a piece of dog in the camp. but im still holding strong to serve it for the sick of my family and country. (:

i have sucha a good day today.
meet my sayang and Yem too.
chill around town. and heading for shopping.
i get to grap a cap due to my bald hair. HAHAHAH!
fiee dah botak. so not handsome. ):
Titi bought for me a Red G-Shock Watch.
i love it so much dear. im happy while going home.
going to sleep real soon. she have be repeating over and over again asking me to sleep early. HAHAH! but im here blogging of my fucking routine. (:
it have been almost 2 weeks i have not meet her. im glad to meet her at last. <3
you have be showing me sucha concern like no other. i do treasure u. cos i believe that u wont do sucha thing just to dump me away like the other girls that i never knew before. u prove me wrong. and u have been waiting for me such a worthwhile.

PS: I want a RED Birkenstock! SIZE 9 PLEASE! Baby i need you.

2010-05-14T17:08:00.002+08:00

Hello Earthlinks.
i just feel i decided to blog my rusty blog of mine..
i feel much independent now. doing my own things and still surviving with what im currently doing right now is serving my National Serving. im have sucha hard and crucial time there. every thing i did is all i do with my hard work and my bare hands. im thankful and appreciate with all my platoon mates and they have been nice towards me. i make more guy friends now. HAHAHH! (:

what i was thinking is im sucha fickle minded person. im confuse and i barely cant think straight and get the true answer by my own. im confuse with everystep i walk. every time that ticking through the watch. i miss my mum so much. and i cry almost everyday while eating my meals and washing my clothes. the tears will always drop down to my hard work wet clothes.

PS: Who is mr.i think im FGL ?!

2010-04-14T01:42:00.003+08:00

2010-01-28T21:23:00.003+08:00

Everything happen so fast....
time is clicking.. but i am still moving on.
its like everyone already happy and i am still hanging to the past.
i need move on. without someone now.

To Azlizan NZ,
i am sorry for what i've done. I already move on. Move on to someone who truly trust me to the fullest now. im not hurting u or something. i already tried my best between me and u... but everything doesn't seem serious in you. u keep saying that i am joking. but i am so disappointed in you. everything i've said is truly from the bottom of my heart. but nothing seem to change. so its better we move on and find someone that really understand you to the fullest. i don't wanna drag things up cos it have been months and nothing seem to change. im sorry. forgive me.

To Budak Perempuan Ubi Avenue,
Congratulation! im happy for you. i am speechless after reading your blog and stuff. because of you. i totally move on. this is all because of YOU! AND YOU ARE THE ONE WHO KEEP ME WAITING AND I DESERVE THIS! Good! what i can say that i hate you the most! A girl that i hate and i won't forgive you for sure. even though things might goes worst. im the one who always being there for you. and this is what i get from you. U are just a girl that have been passing around and around. i don't care what reasons u wanna give me next. im just so dumb to wait for you. After your las ex Rudy, i still strong with you. can u imagine which guy willing to wait for a girl that already own by someone. now up next! gerek! lepas satu,satu! GI MAMPUS AKU KATA! have the guts to add me as ur BFF?! Bff wont do sucha thing okies!
i fought with Tasha all because of you. i know that tasha is on urside. and i understand that u guys doesnt need me anymore. FUCK OFF ALL BITCHES!

2010-01-17T03:35:00.002+08:00

Now im working busy working Full-time.
just to have my independent time to earn myself a credit.
i need to work hard to earn more and more money. WeeeWit.....
Girls can put aside. i mean it. <3
Cos im sick and tired of having sucha dramatic romance that really doesnt make any worth for myself.

PS: i need my own BIKE <3

2010-01-06T00:49:00.003+08:00

People might not understand what i have been going through.
i have been going through HELL that no one doesnt seem to understand.
I mean this. I don't wanna contact with anyone now.
i give up with all the FUCKING girls who wanna know me.
its just nothing but a plain hurts. i hurt myself deep now.
i've lose one by one.
tats y i dun wanna u guys to fall for me. everything happen to be wasted.
wasted like there's not heart in my body.
i cry badly. i cry and cry. i can't even solve my own problem.
maybe i need someone to cry on.
i swear! i need a HUG so badly now.
someone who can hear my complaint and going through all the sorrow with me.
the person that i've lost.
~~LILY DEAREST~~
~~NurKaseh~~
~~Suyanti Andi~~
~~Hidayatullah~~
~~Natassia~~
~~Aida Cinone~~
~~Iraa Mickie~~

I hate you all for leaving me alone here.
im suffering, i cry without reasons.
i lose one by one.
im scare to lose her. );
there's only one girl standing tall for me.
and i cherish her the most.

PS: u are a rainbow to me.

2010-01-03T06:29:00.003+08:00

Today nothing much but i spend my time with my happy pills as usual.
play soccer at rulang street soccer court. have my dinner at Teh Tarik and off to bukit timah lan game. play left 4 dead with my happy pills.
chill for a moment and off home. that the only thing i did today. plain but i have alot of fun. <3

i need a job terribly to get my stuff.
this is the stussy cap that caught my eyes.
ARGH! im so in love with that black cap ones i enter the Flash & Splash with Lily Dearest and her Sister (ezza).

what i wanna share today is....
someone whom i do really love right now.
are turning away from me.
i might not win or get what i want.
or whom i wanna be in love with.
its just an imaginary girl who always appear in my dream.
and it cant be fall in a reality world.
i have sucha crucial time now.
but no matter what i will always love her still.
i keep my words and i wont change any further.
my answer will always be the same. will still love u.
im still waiting for you til you are serious with me.
cos no one love you like i do.
and i don't fall that easily to girls words.
but im giving this all to you. cos i do badly love u dear.

PS: no one could change my mind for you. <3

2010-01-02T05:09:00.002+08:00

im gonna turn old every year im celebrating new year.
2009 is my worse ever relationship life i have been through.
i have nothing to say but meeting bitches all the time.
i hope this new year and new life i gonna turn to someone more reality that truth enough to be true. (:

i enjoy my countdown so much with my happy pills.
No girls but basically all are my cousins. so everyone is related.
HAHAHAHAH! Juppy seem new to us. but we enjoy the moment together.
i meet new people and enjoy my time there.
i party all night till i go flat to the ground.

i have been single for almost a year.
so maybe i gonna stick to my status im 22? LOL! (;
i guess so. let my love life be confidential between myself.
i wont reveal any secret admire or who im dating with. cos its just plain letting people know about my privacy life.

i love this mysterious girl. <3

2009-12-20T07:47:00.003+08:00

2009-12-19T16:53:00.002+08:00

Lets ROCK and ROLL to Begin the Party. <3

2009-12-19T06:16:00.002+08:00

From Miserable,ending with Beautiful.
im glad,having such goodfriend now.
even though people out there doesn't really understand what i have been going through so far. i do PARTY! just for the sake of having such Bitchy Moment that last for a short time. i LOVE the way i manage my time now. <3

2009-12-15T06:00:00.001+08:00

Life have been so complicated.
but i still MISS my Nurul no matter what.
that particular name is always in mind til the end.
Nurul is what i want.
So no one could stop me having her.
i don't need new girl to bring me such a horrible happiness. (:

2009-12-03T02:08:00.001+08:00

Should i BUY NEW mobile phone or shopping to fill up my closet?
MAY DAY! MAY DAY! I need some Help here. (:

2009-11-29T16:26:00.003+08:00

i MISS kicking.
i MISS punching.
i MISS my TEAM.
i MISS Training.
i MISS Silat Family.
i MISS everything.

im returning back to training next year.
i will be playing Class 'C' as usual. or even Class 'B',Depends.
maybe im preparing myself first before proceed to an intensive training.
Cheers.

2009-11-29T00:07:00.007+08:00

it feels like a month have past.
its have been a years and now she is 17.
i miss those moment.
moment of joyful that i used to have when im still in her arm.
I just wanna wish you a HAPPY BIRTHDAY.
AND I WISH U ARE HAPPY WITH YOUR LIFE NOW. <3

2009-11-27T02:34:00.002+08:00

Which Mobile phone should i get.
i just feel like i need some help here.
kinda confuse which one to choose (:

iPhone 3G or Nokia E63 ?

2009-11-26T06:43:00.002+08:00

my day was critic with my current job now.
everything seem moody cos i broke two glasses. DAMMIT.
im so careless. and i lepak with my colleague and off cab home (:

i just feel like writing what i feel right now.
i might into someone now.or have a crush on someone.
but i don't weather it is for a moment or forever.
cos i know myself so well. when im really into someone. that someone wont into me.
tats my life. and i really understand about my life so well.
i cant describe about the girl. what i can say is. she unique with everything she did.
her words tat speak out from her.
every blink of her eyes. make me fall for her.
my friendship with her,might be counting. but i only meet her ones. ones due to im not trusting to any girls so far. but she the one prove me that she is someone so different from the others. someone that can easily put a smile and laughter on my
face. i just like her. that's all i can say. i wish i can meet her again soon. but what i can say is, its impossible for me to be with her. cos im aint her standard guy that gonna be. so i just stay myself here. waiting for your coming. im here strongly waiting for you.

PS: im in LOVE.

2009-11-22T06:12:00.003+08:00

Last night was boredom staying at home the whole day.
Sit infront of my lappy from morning till noon.
No life i know. but i always stay at home and have nothing better to do and just play the internet and chats. So since im bored at home.
i text Kaseh and ask where she is.. HAHAHAHHA!
she lost at Joo Koon. stay east side can stuck at west side.
Funny la Kaseh ni. then since she around here. plan to meet her since she have been complaining when i gonna meet her. so i get her a shot and tried to meet her. Since im scare or i can say that im shy to meet someone new. Actually, she is not someone new to me. we have been contacting each other from almost 2 years. but im the one who refuse to meet her. cos i know if there's a fate we might meet. So meet her at chinese garden and end up meet her at clementi. Sorry for the late reply. cos im meeting my friend on that time of period. We took the train to city hall and chit chat some stuff. We share alot about ourself. im comfortable being with her. Such a Cute and Sweet girl to me. Boooooo~

so i text tasha where she is since she working around the area nearby city hall.
so i walked down to Plaza Singapure since tasha is over there. so i tag Kaseh along. it have been months i have not meeting my bestfriend Nattasia, due to somethings used to happen. but we go everything perfectly. so Kaseh talk a little with Tasha and took some pictures. sedih sia fiee no picture taken. LOL!

We since we have alot of time. Fiee and Kaseh walk down the town and have some chit chat along the way. she is someone so fun to talk with. HAHAHAH! even though we rarely meet her before. i told her that we gonna meet again for another 6 to 9 months later. HAHAHAH! she told me LAMA seh.
i've share many personal stuff with her. she's a good listener to me. cos one thing is... i trust her the most. someone that i can revealed all my secret with. Thanks Kaseh for everything. we gonna meet soon i promise. (:

PS: She's Unique when she start to YAWN (:

2009-11-18T05:57:00.003+08:00

My life is simply simple.
NO LOVE. <3
But working so HARD just to get what i want. (:
For the time being im less in socialise.
due to school and work.
everything is so pack for me.
After school work.
after work sleep and go to school again.
Same routine no change. (:
Day off? im aint confirm. if i could work everyday.
i would loved too. HAHAHAHA!
i falling in love with scrambler. <3

2009-11-15T14:25:00.002+08:00

i have such a crucial night last night.
thanks to someone who let me borrow 30 bucks just to let me home safety.
i don't understand sometimes not all friends we can rely on.
out of 100 friends in my contacts only one could help me.
its like WTH! is like i gonna spend their fucking 30 bucks for something else.
i just feel so giddy and tired to work.
the story is like this.
first of all i finished work quite late around 11 plus. OMG! i forgot that the purple line last train is more early then den usual train i took from city hall. i was damn stress up. my ez link left a few cents and i can even ride Nightrider too. i got two ATM card. the another one my mum took it just to pay her bills this morning. and forget to return it back to me. but i only left one atm card which is only left 3 bucks inside it. how i wanna withdraw my money with 3 bucks. the train station is close. i cant even get to go inside and top up my ez-link. its like im lost at clarke quay at the middle of the night.i text many some of my friends. but everything seem useeless. );

its like the im going out and the company where im going will pay it back.
so i just need the 30 bucks to go home and return it back as soon as im going to work this monday. end up someone take the courage and wake up from the bed just for me. and go to the atm machine to transfer her 30 bucks to me. i love her man!
thanks alot. without you. i will be dying at clarke quay alone. no money to eat or even get to drink something.
i promise i will pay u back this tuesday as i will send the taxi receipt to my manager as a return. for you guys info. this is my FIRST time borrowing money from someone. HAHAHAHAH!

mum told me not to borrow money cos it might be a habits.
since i need it so much due to urgency. i have to ask my friends.
mum and day is busy working and i cant even tell them to transfer.

Her Ex Boyfriend text me.
How Awesome. i told you that you ex is still concerning about you.
y bother making a new life with me,but there's someone stopping us from whatever we do. and i can say that. if he thinks i might own u. he is wrong. totally stupid i might be with you. cos you are someone doesn't even exist in my life to fall in love with. i be friends with you with full of sincerity.
i love the way to put out the show.
tell everything to your ex bf about me.
HEY! u should appreciate that i never even tell a single thing what u tell me about him. you are such making things complicated for the both of us. What are u trying to do. You can lose me. but u wont losing him. cos i as a guy i would feel how he feel right now. cos you told me to keep everything as a secret. u cant keep secrets. i can see from that. so that was the last. if anything happen. serve you right for breaking the trust that already given from me.

PS: FUCKTARD LOVESTORY

2009-11-14T02:05:00.002+08:00

im currently working now.
thanks to my friend, Aishyah Bailey.
She the one who introduce me to this job.
Am thankful to her.
But overall. i love my job so much.
DAMMIT! i look smart with my uniform. LOL!
Cos die-die i need to save up just to bought this items so much. <3

2009-11-14T00:50:00.002+08:00

im confuse with my life now.
i don't know what im doing now..
since everything is mess up. due to you.
but why must you return to me out of the sudden....
and make me feel like someone guilty to be with her....
yeah! i might be nice sometimes.
but im too nice that i don't even know my own limits.

im sorry guys if my love life seem complicated.
u leave me for someone and now u returning back to me.
What i are you trying to do.
im happy without you.
and im happy with my new life now.
new life without you.
i know, you know that you are someone whom i used to love before.
that making u the most top priority.
but that was my past.
since for what u've did to me.
im kinda confuse cos, i don't know what i gonna do next.
i don't wanna be a player.
cos what i want is the happiness in me and you.

Its like u have been using me all this while.
im not a toy or even ur bodyguard to lead your life.
i wanna be the best boyfriend for you like anyone else.
i wanna have the a perfect love story.
that ended till eternity.
now i gonna leave myself alone.
and i need my own time to settle everything up.
im sorry if i cant even reply to any of your message guys.
its not you have been ignore or my prepaid currently low.

is i want to get myself settle down.
and solve my own problems by my own self..
cos im mature enough to do and make decision my own self.
im sorry for what i've did.
i just want the happiness like anyone else. <3

PS: LOVESTRUCK

2009-11-02T16:08:00.002+08:00

since last night i have no mood...
im sorry guys if my mood is just keeping myself quiet..
i dun mean to spoiled the day by keeping myself quiet.
just that i feel like im losing someone now...
losing someone whom make me smile everytime she text me..
but sadly everything i have to let it go...
let go for the better...

i don't wanna spoiled people relationship..
what i know he do care for you.
but this is not the way he suppose to control you..
even being my friend.
yea! truly i don't forward anything to you.
but i just can feel that u are someone so nice towards me...
even it have been awhile i just know you..
its like i have knowing you for years.
i do cherish every moments with you.
but the time don't let us past together...
even how hard life gonna happened ...
what i can share with you that...
all this while...
i only text only you...

cos everyone just left me without scene...
so i only left you.
since u have to go...
i left nothing but sorrow in my life...

you are someone whom i always saw in the bus...
and even at bustop...
or after school.
im hurts.. hurts wit all this crap thing.
this is childish i can say.
he is such a loser.
loser that i might be with you..

PS: i hate this part right here.

2009-10-31T05:57:00.006+08:00

Hello People.
life have be so great for me now.
i enjoy my precious time to the fullest.
i don't mind being alone out there..or
going out alone. but at least i enjoy time perfectly.
just do something fun and enjoy my time with my happy pills.
they are my pillar and soul of my life. without them. my life would be empty without laughing and a smile on my faces.

i have enough! since my last relationship.
i got those blames and full of arguments, due to misunderstanding to each other.
and am OUT of patience and being honest with my relationship.
cos for me....
girls doesn't seem to appreciate what is provided for them.
CARE! LOVE! CHERISH! ( NONE SECURE )
maybe am not that perfect lover or such a romantic type of guy.
in their eyes....
what i can do is.... being myself and accept me, for who i am.
im firdaus hassan. who is kind heart ed and always being sincere...
enough to showed my love to my love ones. maybe they are not my fate to be together. maybe as time goes by i will find my suitable and compatible girl out there. ( still waiting )

Yea! truly deep inside me.... who doesn't wants beautiful relationship. even i do want it. and sometimes i feel so jealous or feel so left out,watching or seeing people out there happily with they couple or girlfriend. i miss having a girlfriend. but right now, i'm not into anyone. even anyone whom am close with or even friend with right now. All are the same to me. if that's the best. that will be the best position i wanna be. so i can't label or elaborate where she is standing right now in my life.

Right now... my bestfriend are happily falling in LOVE with someone.
and im totally happy to see he smile again.
enjoying with his wanna be girlfriend. i guess.
but someone i know right now. (:
seem hard to mention. let me keep this secret between myself.
everyone is stopping me from being friend with her.
every time i see her face, she is the most sincere girl who wanna be my friend.
not more not less. just to get it clear to all of you.

sometimes i don't even know how to repay people kindness.
i know i can't repay them with money or even diamond that i could affordable to buy it at some jewelry shop in the mall. but what i afford is see them the glorious smile to their faces.

sometimes i don't even understand why people wanna break the happiness that i've been working at. for ones, let me fly free to have does happiness i wanna all this while.
i just feel that i rather die right now then suffering,what im going through all this while. i apologized if i did something that might hurts people feelings out there.

im confuse. im confuse. im confuse.
confuse with my path to where im going through right now.
i wish SOMEONE could came into my life,
and guide me. cos im currently lost my way.
it have been so long i have not been sitting to someone and let everything out what i feel right now. sometimes i lay back in my room. and give myself 5 mins about my day. what i've been doing today. keep thinking and thinking. if i did something wrong or hurts people feelings to the people all surround me. if i did, im sorry.

Someone gave me bubble gum today!
every steps i walk....
i will busy chewing my gums....
and texting you at the same time...
just wanna let you know that im here keep thinking about you.
even you are enjoying life to the fullest.

maybe for the time being....
i will be missing in action...
due to, i need my own personal time on my own.
is time to rest my mind and get myself out of social the network for a moment.
So to the people out there, if you can't reach me.
im sorry.
i have enough of all the drama and crap that i need to carry on my shoulder.

i don't know why must i feel so worry about you.
its like it came on its own.
worry without reasons.
so let me find out on my own.
what that's feelings means?

PS: i will be never complete without you.

2009-10-29T07:41:00.007+08:00

Early in the morning around 10am i wake up from sleep.
and chiqka text me weather im already awake.
since she have job interview and accompany by her bibik,
and i ask her to accompany me to buy a gift for someone.
so we walk round and round the town.
kinda lose seh. HAHAHAHAAH!

i was planing to buy her this reef fanning slipper.
but got this glitter girlish kinda type uh.
so i reject it.
so proses to new urban male and see what nice there.
so i ask for help weather something suite her.
so maybe she will like it. Woooo~

off to school back.
and doing my project as usual...
have my lunch and dinner alone at cafe 2.
den waited for Awi.
and plan to meet her for a moment.
just to give her the gift that i brought for her earlier on.
its just a HI HI BYE BYE. (:

rest at home till 10 plus.
and craving for chicken at KFC.
so heading to taman jurong.
and eat this stupid ayam batu chicken.
LOL! so i lepak and home sweet home. (:
i need to sleep. NITES!

PS: CBB! no size 10 for my REEF FANNING SLIPPER!

2009-10-28T04:59:00.003+08:00

What a nice thing...
that someone understand me to the fullest.
even though there's someone out there are stopping this friendship...
i wont be giving up this even though i need to go through a million miles.
im thankful and grateful to have someone whom i can complaint every matters....

Cos i believe in myself
that i wont do something foolish just to get things.
patience and sincerity that i need to learn and earn it..
i have all the time in this world.

People cant have enough of revenge..
Vengeance will always happen....
that is what im worrying about....
if u can see the happiness in us....
i can barely get myself off.
but no one could stop me...
if what am doing doesn't harm anyone...
i want my happiness....
this is my happiness....
Happiness that i have been waiting for a long time. ):

PS: Forget the past. and Start something new.

2009-10-27T18:15:00.002+08:00

im happy with my life now.
Having you is the greatest.
Fighting is a part and parcel in life. <3

2009-10-27T04:17:00.002+08:00

Yesterday night.
i have such a critical night.
i feel like crying out loud.
but only God's know how i feel last night.
i tried text Audrey, sadly she reply me with a WORD, NO HOPES.
am i being so harsh to you audrey?
so am being HATE with what i've done.
yea! im not the caring person that u think.
but u can just feel what im trying to say and do all this while.
but everything is just false hope for me.
Im happy as a friend that u found someone that can shower you with love now.
Thanks for being there for me all this while.

i suppose to visit you last night with my Nurul Alexa.
but sadly u wanna give me the wards no. and etc.
i planing to go..
sadly something bad happens.
one of my princess(my sister)
fall sick really bad.
so called the ambulance and rush to the hospital.
u can say whatever you want. but my family is my top priority as u know me.
and if i drop by there maybe is a waste of time.
cos i just can sense that i just make u plain sick.
am asking you this question?!
Did your (H) visited you last night?! (:
your sayang mah. HAHAHAHAH!
im just your friend remember?
so i waited for my sister till i fall asleep.
cos i have no mood to entertain any of the messages.
every message just make me so down.
luckily, my true friend...
Nurul Alexa who asking me if im ok on that period of time.
im sorry i didn't reply to any of your messages till the next day. ):

I just wanna everyone to get in mind that.
My Heart have stop falling for love.
No one could make the happiness.
and i hate plain problem such as jealousy and stuff.
just a plain problem that doesn't worth anything.
but just a full of crap misunderstanding.
and i hate things to repeat it again and again.
if you don't understand me.
i don't mind leaving. cos waiting for me doesn't worth anything. i swear.
cos im not into any relationship.
till someone come and prove me something different.
that im so comfortable with.
this is the time...
i wanna apologise...
if i cant accept any love right now.
i hope people understand and giving me full support.
now im trying to move on as time goes by.

PS: GIRLFRIEND IS NOT ALLOWED

2009-10-26T11:37:00.004+08:00

I spend this moment of time to write about my feelings right now.
its have been so long i never let my emotional out of myself. maybe this is the time.
Some people might be wondering why i am out meeting new friends and blind date. Cos my life is simply don't know what im doing right now. maybe i need someone that i can rely on who can be there for me, fully understand my needs. Its not love what i need now. is just someone whom i can rely and have a cold shoulder. cos people do came and go. but i always feel that people will always go and wont stay with me when i do need them. some are plain jealous with what i did all along.i just trying my best to stick to only one. but i cant stop people who wanna make friendship with me.

Relationship? Relationship? Relationship?
i can get over to my past relationship.
cos i have done all my best to make that particular happy.
but sadly the ending have to be end that fast with a blink of an eyes.
im scare to face another relationship. and please. don't waste you guys time
confessing to me. cos im ain't changing myself and to be in relationship.
unless she proven me that she the best of me. and im happy to be part of her life.
sometimes,something beautiful won't bring the relationship to the greatest height.
every time i walk by the street.
memories is here and there.
sometimes when i listen to my ipod...
i feel like crying at the corner.
and let everything out of me.
sometimes i feel how beautiful relationship are from people smile and laughter.
i miss holding hands.
i miss cuddling.
i miss hugging.
and i miss the kiss on the forehead.

i might nobody to people eyes.
but im happy to the greatest mum who support me all along with my love life.
when u treat people nice, people might take advantage over you.

maybe if i have a crush right now.
only me who know it.
cos im into someone right now.
someone so special. seem so caring. and simply sweet to me.
even though i don't meet her that often.
i just can feel that she right beside me whispering to me.
every message that she send to me.
bring me such laughter.
she like my report strength for everything.
family personal problem.
i would share it with her.
let you judge me yourself.

PS: i feel secure to be with you.

2009-10-25T03:22:00.004+08:00

I just feel like blogging about my day today.
since i have nothing much about my day that much.
everything happen to be a routine to me.
Cos i always did the same thing daily. so if i update also like NO LIFE.
HAHAHAHAHAH!

Last night is Beautiful.
Today is History for me.

Wake Early in the morning...
round 7.30am....
text Alexa if she already awake.
WOW! she awake! Awesome.
Cos we already plan earlier, to have our breakfast together at MacDonald.
So first off all she late for 5 Minutes.
HAHAHAHA! i laughed inside me, when she was crossing the road.
DAMMIT! CUTE OR WHAT! NO GREEN MAN. just cross the road.
she's like hopping damn fast and run. LOL!
So Accompany i accompany her, to the dental.
Early in the morning...
Alexa make ONE morning joke for me.
First,She realize that she was sleeping under her bed all along. HAHAHAHA!
i was like WTH! NURUL!

So while waiting for her.
read some magazine.
as she when out of the door.
WOW! Bright Green BABE!
so damn striking! Boooooo~

so proses to McDonald to have out breakfast.
She order her craving thingy.
HOTCAKES!
As i was eating my Big Breakfast.
i notice and look the way she spread her butter over her hotcakes.
She's like massaging the Hotcakes. HAHAHAHAH! (;
putting some Oil on the body of the hotcakes. LOL.
We've done or breakfast.
she Off home, cos she need to accompany her mum to JB. (:
REMEMBER MY BUBBLE GUM OK! Weeeee~

So im off to BBDC for class.
den process to town to buy my shade.
and i bump some of my friends at town.
so have my dinner at Sakura..
and shopping at ION.
and home sweet home. (:

PS: i love my day being with you.

GIFT

2009-10-24T00:59:00.004+08:00

WOW! such a tiring day today.
wake up early in the morning go BBDC for my practical.
HEY! at last i through to the next practical.
HAPPY UH! Keluar BBDC senyum lebar2.. Weeee~

today i skip school again, due to overslept.
my good friend told me that if overslept, as well don't came to school.
am i right? (:

so have a good rest at home.
and am out again to training.
WOW! i am going to the new center at Bishan.
i don't really like the place since there is not changing room or even shops.
the distance to the training ground is also quite far from the MRT.
so i request to my coach that, it is not a suitable place for all athlete. (:

Someone did something sweet today.
She drunk! but yet! she bought for me ,a GAP tee just for me.
Awwwww! i LOVE the Tee-shirt so much.
PREFECT COLOUR! MY FAVOURITE COLOUR.<3
Thanks for the Tee again.
im speechless by the GIFT.
Even though we have a hard time but we pull it through.

PS: HOTCAKES TOMORROW MORNING <3

2009-10-18T05:47:00.005+08:00

im bored =[[
so here's and update <3
comment && sub ill return the favor =]

everytime i see your smile
it makes my heart beat fast.
i know it's much too soon to tell,
but i'm hoping its going to last.
i just cant get you off my mind,
and why would i even try?
even when i close my eyes
i dream about you all the time
♥ dear ( HER )

well you are the one the one that lies close to me.
whisper's hello, i miss you quite terribly.
i fell in love, in love with you suddenly
. now there's no place else i could be but here in your arms.

Is it obvious? The way I look at you.
The way I always want to look my best whenever I know you're around.
Maybe the way I laugh at everything you say,
or think about you all the time.
Is it obvious? The way I always want to be your main focus.
How just a glance from you makes me giggle?
Or the way I can't seem to stop smiling when I'm with you.
Is it obvious that I want you?

and if tomorrow you're still just a friend, I'll stay up until again.

Even after I've left, I can still feel
your arms wrapped around me.
and you know, I'll remember that
feeling for the rest of my life.

kiss her like she's famous.
hold her like she's everything.
& tell her she's the only one for you.
and most of all, mean every single thing.

I'm the kind of guy who lives for summer,
the kind that loves to feel the wind through
her hair and the sand in her toes, the kind
that wishes summer would come sooner,
and when it's here, it'll never leave.

how come you make it so confusing
one day you act like you want me
then the next your not sure anymore
i need you to tell me the truth i cant keep hanging on
even though you are all i really want....

I'm feeling you,
You're feeling me,
What exactly is holding us back?
Just give me anything.

I need the smell of summer,
I need its noises in my ears.

2009-10-16T03:14:00.004+08:00

Today i feel like blogging..
Going to BBDC after watching soccer.
Hey HISHAM! atleast i support you ok.
Next time my fights you do support me okies. SETTLE!
damn i failed my practical again. what mistake did i do sia...
Maybe i tell my instructor that i am a first time. They like to used our money lor.

Sedih oh what. );

Straight back home....
Messaging someone while on the way home...
Someone told me that eating CheeseBurger Contain WORMS!
OMG! i eat Worm BEBEH! Hows Cool was that..
She seem cute to me. HAHAHAHAH! (:

have my dinner alone...
like almost everyday i have my dinner or even lunch alone.
HAHAHAHAHAH!
in school or outside school.
NO LIFE RIGHT?!

maybe im a loner..
but i love my life now..
going to school just to do what i need to do..
and straight back home.
cos im the type that lazy to lepak and introduce myself by making more friends.
its all depends if i have the mood to talk. Sorry guys..

i don't wanna date or fall in love with anyone for the time being..
Some people might know me well..
why am i am not facing all the relationship or even plain dates.
That is just a temporary thing.
i love the way i am.
having such a beautiful friends who is being there for me.
They are all LOVED by Fiee. (:

PS: Only you who i depending the most.

2009-10-12T03:10:00.004+08:00

Being in relationship is just a temporary thing for teenage life.
Just for the sick of attention and an additional care.
LOVE for Family.
LOVE for Yourself.

PS: i just MISS someone now. );

2009-10-09T19:04:00.004+08:00

i terribly MISS this particular girl.
Her Name LILY LEE.
i might not say anything or elaborate about HER.
but i do can't hide or fake to myself, that i do really love her no matter what.
She's my LIFE.
No One could replace you in my heart. <3

2009-10-09T02:20:00.006+08:00

All of you do make my day.
i feel younger when i am around with my schoolmates.
I do enjoy the Hari Raya Outing with you guys.
will upload the picture soon. (:

2009-10-05T20:32:00.002+08:00

My life, no one could stop me from doing something good and foolish.
Oh God! please guide me to a correct path along the way.
i might be lost here. and i don't even know what's my direction of my life now.
im depressed and disappointing with what i've done all my entire life.
i might did the most biggest mistake of my life. i wish God's would forgive me.

All my friends are away.
even though how far you are.
im still close right here.
waiting till you get back.

To NurHisham
thanks bestfriend. i know you are the only person i would find if i have such a stressful problem even though the problem can be solve by ourself.
i know you are trying your best to help me.
we have been friends for almost 12 years.
we see each other growing and u truly understand me better den my parents.
im scare with what i gonna face in future. but you guide me will all the parts and parcels. (:
you might be waiting for so long.
when i gonna bring my love to you.
HAHAHAHA! never yet getting to see whom i dating with. maybe this is not the right time. as u know, girls who are be with me all along are such a bitch. and u know that i easily get hurt if i fall for someone. maybe one day i will show it to you.

To Brace Girl:
Hello Friend. u have been MIA from fiee..
waiting for your reply making me waiting for you such worthwhile.
Only you i would complaint about my day.
without you. i will just waiting till you text me and and i will share about my entire day with you.
how to bump into you soon. (:

2009-09-30T22:09:00.002+08:00

I failed my test. OMG! ):
need to study back all the steps that have taught by them.
Tomorrow tuition again.
afternoon till evening.
i have been doing this almost everyday.
just to PASS my exam as soon as possible.
what a crucial day i have. (;
Sorry guys if have been away or missing in action.
i tried my best to tag along with you guys.
Not now..
but sooner or later.. (;

This post is totally random.
no one knows who am into now.
lets everything keep it between myself.
cos its just a secret lover for me.
i found someone now.
someone who i already fall...
from the very start i saw her.
i don't know if i could win her heart in future.
cos im scare to fall in another relationship...
since my past relationship is totally terribly and horrible.
so i don't dare to commit another one.
She is someone so special to me.
first time, i glance into her....
i start to like her.
just a like not more than that.
but its impossible for me to be with her.
i wish that i could know her a little better as time goes by.
have been looking forward into her.

Maybe its too early for me to confess what i feel about her.
so i maintain myself and being myself by knowing her.
even there's many optical i need go through.
i must be strong cos love do need to sacrificed.
Lets the motion follow the moment by itself.

PS: You are the one of the kind

2009-09-28T11:17:00.000+08:00

PS: she's gorgeous to me. I smile when she smile. (:

2009-09-27T23:20:00.002+08:00

i HAVEN'T found someone that is reliable to be with me.
Till now i am still waiting the special person to go out with me
To this places where i dream to go. ):

1)Marina Barrage
2)Sentosa
3)Singapore Zoo
4)Ice Skating
5)Ben & Jerry
6)Botanic Garden
7)Clake Quay
8)Henderson Wave
9)Escape Theme Park
10)Spend FULL DAY with me. <3

2009-09-27T01:33:00.001+08:00

I DON'T NEED A REPLACEMENT.
I DON'T NEED A GIRLFRIEND.

WANT I NEED IS...

just to be by your side.

2009-09-27T01:19:00.002+08:00

Today i just feel like blogging about my day with my cousins.
it have been so long we have not been gathering.
i do enjoy my moment with you guys.
i know that i have been busying wit my stuff and not tagging along with you guys plan. maybe due to my busy, i can't spend my time with guys. but remember. no matter what, im still part of the family. (:

WOW!
my one week of holidays have past so fast.
due to having tuition almost everyday. i can't even feel that i only left a week of my holidays to spend. (:

i just know this particular person
who have just came into my life.
and i just can feel that,
that person is such a rainbow to me.
even though i always saw that person inside the bus and train.
end up i get to talk to that person at last.
That person make my day.
At least right now i have someone to complaint every single thing.
thanks pal.

i know it have been hard for the both of us.
even though we need to go through many optical.
i believe that you are one of the kind friend i need to fill my happiness.
you might be a stranger to me.
but stranger that seem to be a stalker for you.
You make me move on with all the hurts and pain i've been going through all this while.

i know you might not read my blog. cos i don't even have my blog link.
this blog is all referring to you.
specially for you. whom change me totally.
i don't wish to lose someone like you ever again.
the pain and the hurts i have been going through is way enough for me.
Every single word that you text me.
never failed to put a smile on my face.
and even a small laughing adding by.

even it have been days and years i have been watching you.
im scare to say anything that might hurts you one fine day.
Do you know how special you're to me?
how much cherish you in life?

PS: i MISS that braces girl.

2009-09-24T17:27:00.002+08:00

One stranger came across me...
"Why must fiee feel so unhappy when there's someone
out there who deserve u more than that bitch."

Fiee says
" maybe... this is not the right time for me to be in love.
cos there someone who love u are still searching for you. but i just need to patience and wait for my love to came right infront of my eyes. everything i just pray it to mighty God. Amin "

PS: LOVE is something that we need to be gentle and responsible.

2009-09-23T22:42:00.003+08:00

im not going to trust another women.
FUCKTARD TO All GIRLS LA!
i'm not giving a damn thing.
when im giving all my heart to them.
but why must u make things so complicated.

Don't ever ask me when im gonna attached or find someone new.
i have enough of all this relationship drama.
my heart for now is for no one.
NO ONE but only for my beloving MUM.
who willing to hear every of my relationship problems.
I LOVE YOU, MUM!

wanna know my criteria?
1)Someone who understand me and make me feel comfortable.
2)someone who can make me smile everytime i see her.
3)willing to go through everything with me even though how hard life gonna be.
4)Alcoholic,JUNK and SMOKE Free.
5)Respect the religion.
6) True LOVE. <3

2009-09-19T23:35:00.003+08:00

I NEED THIS GIRL SO BADLY.
THIS GIRL WHO CHANGE MY ENTIRE LIFE.
WHO TAUGHT ME THE MEANING OF REAL LOVE.
THE LOVE THAT DOESN'T WORTH ANY PENNY.

2009-09-19T23:30:00.002+08:00

I know you will be reading my blog.
Today special post is all dedicate it to you.
i still searching for you.
even after the baybeats.
i stay all day all night thinking about you.
the missing part of you, that empty my side of my life.
Please knock my door again. i waiting for your coming.

PS: BANGLE,PICTURE,'COTTON ON' BEG is still left of memories.

2009-09-19T15:21:00.002+08:00

Should i get the Lime Green or the Pure White?
*Lime Green seem typical.
*Pure White easy to get dirty.

2009-09-19T14:40:00.002+08:00

Due to trusting to all her words.
everything happens to be a lie.
How could you lie to me just for the sick of yourself.
you are plain playing around with me.
and i don't know what changes i should make towards you.
u are plain putting me away from your life.
as time goes by, i'm drifting away from you.
im sorry. im not putting you hopes.
but the hopes happening are all to your foolishness.

PS: I HATE LIAR. <3

2009-09-15T00:01:00.003+08:00

Hello Dearest Earthlink.
someone told me why i never update my blog.
here i am updating blog since it gonna get rusty soon.
attuali my day is a routine. nothing special about my day. schools and friends.
but friends. Nahhhh always out there alone walking down the streets.
i have friends. but sometimes friends do doesnt care and create plain trouble without reasons. so i rather being alone.

Today! im out alone window shopping, survey some new trend in town.
as i walk and walk. its time for buka. and i just grap some tidbits and walk again.
so i plan to meet hishammmy but end up never meet. all because he need to meet his whatever i call gf or not. HAHAHAHHA!

So i text faatihah, and she is free on the time.
and on the way home. so i walk and meet her at plaza singapura. she waited for me, for about 15mins? HAHAHA! im sorry for being late. i will tried not to be late ever again k tya. I like when she show her angry face to me. kinda cute for me.
i sweating like hell when meeting her. damn! not suppose to happen. but i run just to meet her aites.

So we train back home and there's lots of things we need to catch up.
but everything go so smoothly. and i love her aites!
never failed to put a smile on my face. even today i feel so lonely and left out.
i feel great having someone like her in my life.
even though our friendship still counting. im always being there for her.
even there's tons of complaint she needs to tell me. MISSES!
so send her back home till jelapang LRT and off i go straight home.
she text me after she when back home,showing me that she appreciate even though we have tight time to spend with. (:

PS: You put a smile on my face instantly. <3

2009-09-07T19:25:00.000+08:00

Tanya Nama - Sleeq

2009-08-31T23:13:00.001+08:00

Let the picture do the talking. (:
i enjoy my time going out with my BFF.

2009-08-22T17:39:00.001+08:00

2009-08-21T03:02:00.004+08:00

My Slipper gonna BURN soon. I need this NEW pairs,please.

i want this watch desperately. ):

PS: i need Keching2. i wont trouble you, mum.

2009-08-12T02:51:00.000+08:00

im still waiting for her reply.
i wish ...
i can booked you this saturday. ):

2009-08-11T05:40:00.003+08:00

Hello People.
nothing much about today.
i just have the most scariest month this year.
OMG! i was bored and i planed to have a workout at the park around four in the morning.
as i was working my muscles up. got this two indian lady keep staring at me for 15 mins. they came nearer and nearer where im working out. as i was working out. one turn i was shock cos she was right beside me asking for my name. DAMN! scary sia.
she told me if i would like to spend a night with her. i was like WTH. then later, she told me if she could BJ me for a moment. As i heard the BJ word. As soon as possible i run as fast as i can and heading to my mum work place as she work night shift. i tell my mum and with scary tone of my voice. my mum say what happen. and i told her,' Abang kena kejar dengan two bapok seh.' Mama laughed at me as told me serve me right for going out late at night cos she remind me couple of times to sleep. but yet i do stuff that aint impontant. HAHAHA!

damn CB lor. Eeeee!
feel like punching their face aites.
but too scare and im weak if people approached me just like that.

First of all.
i MISS that someone so much.
And she keep running in my mind.
when will you stop by me and give me a HUG.
truly deeply badly. i miss you so much <3

2009-08-10T07:08:00.004+08:00

Happy National day celebration was awesome.
even though there's no one to accompany me watch fire works.
there is someone who occupied my life wit a smile on my face.
today as i'm on e way to my atuk kenduri.
i text couples of people. but they are busy with their own plans.
last and not least. i text this someone whom i wish i don't.
Cos even i'm not that close or meeting her before.
its kinda random. but everything goes to be simply smooth and sweet.
after my kenduri,back home and have a change.
change my clothes and off to woodlands CWP to meet her.
she was left alone cos mira is with her ehem2. (:
so i accompany my dearest new friend for dinner at long john silver.
i cant stop my eyes seeing she ate all the chicken on the table.
HAHAHAHAH! ShhhhhShhhh~ she knows but public don't know. RIGHT?!
so off to park and spend our national day time together.
we play cards and sing song. HAHHA! kinda cute!
so home sweet home.

and truly right now. i MISS her even though i just meet her 7 hrs ago. (:
you are such one reliable and caring friend.
Thanks for being there for me.
even though i have been going all the pain in life.
she's make a BIG impact to me today.

PS: I need a Study Buddy today? Anyone. ):

2009-08-07T22:59:00.002+08:00

1. Are you single or attached?
Single but NOT AVAILABLE.
2.Do you have a person you like?
YES! and she knows it.
3. What is the name of the person that you're in love with?
F******H.
4. if the person you love and your mum dropped into the sea,who will you save?
Mum then LOVE. HAHAHA! without you mum. i wont fall in love.
5.Have you ever hugged someone before?
YES! but im still waiting for her HUG. <3
6. Do you love your parents?
Obviously YES! my pillar of life.
7.Will you hug the one you love?
YES! i prefer HUG then KISS.
8.Are you willing to do anything for your boyfriend/girlfriend?
Yup.i am willing to wait and sacrificed just to be with my girlfriend.
9.Are you jealous now?
Depends. She knows it when i'm jealous. ):
10.Who is the last person that messaged you?
Narly. My Grandpa just past away. ); God will always be there for him.
11. Who is your clique?
Schoolmates.
12.Do you want babies in future?
Yes. i want twins,hunny.
13.Do you prefer Macdonald,KFC,Long John Sliver,Burger King or coffee shop?
Coffer Shop. Bandung Manis punya! WACHEK!
14.Do you sniff glue?
i sniff my Girlfriend perfume. so addicted.
15.Do you smoke?
Social smoker.
16.If your boyfriend/girlfriend is a 2-timer,what will you do?
i will feel so dissapointed. and Label her a Bitch,
17. Which CCA are you in now?
Silat & Soccer.
18.If you're rich, what'll you do?
To change people life with that money.
19.If the one you're in love with, held your hand, what'll you do?
i will hold her hands tight and always close in my heart.
20. If the one you love, reject you, what'll you do?
She told me to keep on trying and prove to her that i really love her so much. <3
21.What is your favourite cartoon character/s?
Gary the snail. Meooooooow! ( Spongebob Pet )
22.Friendship or Love?
Friendship .
23.Cookie monster or Elmo?
Elmo!
24.do you use laptop or computer?
Laptop.
25.Do you like lollipop?
YES! put all the cigg away.
26.Do you have a diary?
Yeah!
27.There's an admirer of yours and he won't die heart, what'll you do?
Singlish!
28.If you quarrel with your boyfriend/girlfriend and he/she wants to break, what'll you do ?
i will fight for it cos i can't live without HER.
29. Are you blur?
Always!
.30.If you can have your hair dyed, what colour do you want it to be?
Blue,Green,Red! HAHAHA!
31. Who is the last person you chatted in your MSN?
Jumi Novarinski.
32.How many boys/girls have you beaten before?
can i say every week? its a part of the training.
33.If your boyfriend/girlfriend don't love you anymore, what'll you do?
its all happen with a faked love. i will move on and don't turn back.
34. What school are you in?
ITE COLLEGE EAST.
Tag 5 besties or friends to do this quiz:
1.Shasya Kental
2.Eyya Aiyaya
3.Jumi Novarinski
4.Sammie
5.Aisha Alba

2009-08-03T04:32:00.008+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO NUR FAATIHAH.

THERE'S ALWAYS A CHOICE IN LIFE.
DON'T TAKE IT FOR GRANTED.
What's the BEST for you,
Is the best for me too. <3
Follow your heart,
but don't let your mind control you.

2009-08-03T04:16:00.003+08:00

Today i cried really hard.
i was left alone, walking down the street.
with my tears rolling down my cheeks.
i scream so loudly in my heart.
but no one seem to hear what i shouted.
Why must this always happen to me.
What did i do till my life have to be ruin this way.

that was the last ROSE i would give it to someone.

i dream last night.
she is with someone else.
and that particular person is somebody to her.
Who might be that person?
Is that her NEW Boyfriend? i guess.
let the time predict the both of us.
cos i have enough of all this while waiting for her
that doesn't worth anything but just
a plain hurtful getting from her.

And God's
knows what i gonna plan today.
but everything seem to be nothing but just a getting hurts by her.
Thanks for everything. Everything that you have done to me.
you make a BIG IMPACT in my life.
People do came and go.
and what goes around will always comes around.
i will not turning back again.
cos turning back into the past doesn't seem to change my life.

How Awesome!
today i walk 15km back home.
from Bukit Panjang till Jurong East!
my leg hurts.
my fever still getting higher and higher.
i sacrificed even though im sick. i don't need your sympathy.

PS: Anyone willing to accompany me to the doctor?

2009-07-31T03:25:00.003+08:00

Hello Earth link.

my day is not tat bright for this few days.
project are all around me.and my room is in totally mess due to my project works.
my life is just going to school and training. nothing much about my life now.

to whom this might concern,
i just wanna let you know that i am terribly need you by my side.
or at least give me, a 5 minutes talk through phone. cos by hearing your voice, its totally making my day more brighter. i might be alone out here,crying over you. cos only God's know how much i MISS you right now. its totally countless how much i spent my message just wanna let you know how much i miss you. you used to be my shoulder to lean on. but now...
where are you when i do really need you.
it seems like you are no longer being there for me.
someone whom i do really trust from bottom of my soul are no longer exist.
i just apology for what i've done,if i make you feel hurts or guilty.i'm sorry. i just don't wanna lose you.
you are a rainbow to me,so beautiful like no other i even own. i MISS everything about you. and even to every of your complaints.

and might not know if you already found someone new in your life. or someone who already TAKEN my place in your heart. maybe money for you is everything. that can bring happiness in your life. that is so wrong. you cant buy happiness.
and its true that i cant get happiness from you. cos you are totally unaffordable to me. i am not that rich,in the sense of money. but i can prove to you that a rich of one heart can change your entire life. you are not the old you that i've known from the very first start. People do came and go. that's what you think. but i am not leaving you no matter how hard life gonna be in future. its just left a few days and it gonna be your BIG DAY. you can receive an expensive gift but one gift that no one could afford,its ME. i am so sorry for everything. maybe you don't need me right now. i am getting my hands off of you. this sadness can't be cure and it will always remain there for my entire life.
i just wanna say that, no one could take your place,but only you could.

PS: I'm Sorry,that i can't be there for you on birthday. Your time is more precious then everything. <3 so cherish it,before it gone.

2009-07-30T01:31:00.003+08:00

I only left 4 days more.
What i gonna do that day?
What i make on that day?
What gonna happen on that day?
Will that particular person will be FREE?
Will that person gonna meet me?
Will that person be happy for what i've done?
Will that person love or likes that thing?

i just have things feelings ,that the person will ignore me totally.
Cos i am still strong waiting for that particular person to beep me.

PS: ME Jobless? $$$PRESENT$$$? OMG! how can i make that person happy,again? );

2009-07-26T02:52:00.002+08:00

Sorry People for not updating my blog.
it just seem to be ain't important to update this blog for the time being.
people doesn't feel what i really feel right now.

i am still waiting for my outing with HER.
Sentosa & Marina Barrage.
Please bring me there.
i wish i could spend my quality time with you soon.

PS: Fiee truly Badly MISS YOU. <3

2009-07-20T14:59:00.003+08:00

Today i have nothing to say.
half happy half upset...
Suppose to go marina barrage today.
but everything happen dissapointed.
how could i spend my time with someone for only 2 hrs?
i prefer watching movie den having a meet ups that fast.
even though it have being so long i have not been meeting her.
the time shown 3pm.
i wanna siap2 and meet her surely 4pm meet.
den reaching marina barrage estimate will be 5pm.
she have to go at 6pm. 1 hour?
maybe i should be patience with what have been coming all along in my life.
WHERE ARE YOU?!
WHEN I DO REALLY NEED YOU?
SHOULD I SAY THIS IS UR FIRST TIME?
I GUESS SO.
Nahhh.... i wont be bother to ask you out again.
cos its just plain making me curious meeting you.
it all about YOU! YOU, yourself know how much i miss you so badly.
and end up i get this?!
im nobody to you.
just a plank of wood to suppose your entire journey of life.
i hope you do really enjoy your time with him.
);

PS: Why must this always happen to me.

2009-07-19T23:24:00.000+08:00

For Firdaus Hassan who birth on month July below are What Your Birth Month Says About You :

* Fun to be with
* Secretive
* Difficult to fathom and to be understood
* Quiet unless excited or tensed
* Takes pride in oneself
* Has reputation
* Easily consoled
* Honest
* Concern about people´s feelings
* Tactful
* Friendly
* Approachable
* Very emotional
* Tempramental and unpredictable
* Moody and easily hurt
* Witty and sarky
* Sentimental
* Not revengeful
* Forgiving but never forgets
* Dislike nonsensical and unnecessary things
* Guides others physically and mentally
* Sensitive and forms impressions carefully
* Caring and loving
* Treats others equally
* Strong sense of sympathy
* Wary and sharp
* Judge people through observations
* Hardworking
* No difficulties in studying
* Loves to be alone
* Always broods about the past and the old friends
* Likes to be quiet
* Homely person
* Waits for friends
* Never looks for friends
* Not aggressive unless provoked
* Prone to having stomach and dieting problems
* Loves to be loved
* Easily hurt but takes long to recover
* Overly concerned
* Puts in effort in work

EVERYTHING IS TRUE! THATS ME!

2009-07-18T15:24:00.000+08:00

Where's my ROZONDIOURS ?

2009-07-18T10:34:00.004+08:00

Early in the morning...
my heart pump slower and slower.
waiting for her to text me. but nothing seem to reply.
so i've think i text her more den 5 times i guess.
i already pack my stuff last night. cos i know i gonna be late meeting her the next day.
i keep texting her since last night. juz a little bit upset.
so early in the morning. as i wake up. there's not msg for me. totally disappointing.
since i can't wait for her to text me. i give her a call. she pick up the phone with a sick voice. i was like... ok! she is sick, better have some rest. so wish her a GET WELL SOON and off put down the phone wit a sad smile on my face.

first of all its not really a big deal for me.
*i neglect my cousin outing today...
*i reject my secondary school meet up. (Eirrah & Bella)
*i avoid my close friend outing to sentosa. (eddiel and arieyo)
*i even never make it for my silat outing with Rina's friends.
*i keeping myself quiet with my friend mimi for not going out with them.
*i not attending to darul makmur silat training. ):

WHY?
must this happen last minutes.
i have no choice to stay at home and slack on saturday as i normally do.
i hope this thing wont happen again.
takecare my ROAR.

PS: GET WELL SOON,DEAR.

2009-07-17T00:21:00.002+08:00

Sorry if i never being update date my blog daily.
being busy with school.
First of all...
I HATE MY HAIRCUT!
STUPID HAIRDRESSER!
I PREFER A TRIM! NOT A CUT!
ARGH! I LOOK SO NOT COOL. MCM MAT UH!
Prefer not to cut man. dammit!
Nahhh! haircut change but my heart will never be change. Booooo~

PS: Fieee miss sangat sama kamu.

2009-07-14T22:12:00.003+08:00

Hello dearest readers.
i dont know why must i go all this pain again.
Last month, i lost my most one and only grandpa.
my grandpa who is a strong person and always advise me to be the best of all.
lately this morninig. my uncle just have to returned to God's Hands.
i praying hard for my beloving uncle, i hope i can see you there in heaven.
Everyone who love you,will always pray hard for you and bless you. so i'm not in the mood to talk to anyone for the time being. as i get back from CCK cemetery. Get myself a good rest at home. i just need someone to talk so badly. today i smile when that someone online on msn. i wish i could tell my sorrow with her. but she told me that she have something to do. from 5plus till 10pm. i've been waiting for her all day long. Just wanna chat with her. i don't know if i am the one who is busy or she the one who is busy. i am not avoiding her either. To whom this might concern. i think, we are totally drift apart. even my heart is so strongly to be with you always, even though how hard or easy life is. you are the one who is the painkiller to me. but now, i just don't feel the same as you used to. u've change! totally not the one who is so caring every though how busy you are.
i hope you are happy with your life now. im always there for you. we are juz a phone call away.

PS: i miss your voice so much, the last call was... you told me that you will call me back as soon as u've talk to your friend. but nothing happen. YOU told me to wait for you while u are doing something. I've Waited. But nothing seem to change. );

2009-07-10T02:39:00.015+08:00

Thanks for the Birthday Wishes.
12am-12am,08 July 09 Wish.
Follow by sequences.( From the First till the Last person )

-Quraisha
-Narly
-Shafidah
-Lily Lee Lee
-Yanaa ♥
-Rina Star
-Ida Bell
-Natassia Rosselini
-Kakak Zimah
-Narly's Mama
-Julii
-Faatihah ♥
-Bella Ashalina
-Reduan Bek Bek
-Assuatika
-Nora Candy
-Ibuku ♥
-Firdayu ♥
-Ain CurlyWurly
-Nana Casper
-BoyBoy(Faisal)
-Alfi Muswaadi
-Maii Rahman
-NurHisham
-Yana Lurp
-Nida Amalina
-Sammie (Arif)
-Aishyah Zuhaila
-Taufiq Jasni
-Lydia Jamil
-Spade Sortz(Azri)
-Manto Aerynlski
-Ain Putri
-OhNadd
-Eirrah Johnson
-Khuzkharl
-Hardy Boys (:
-Viccinta
-EinaDoll
-Chiqka B.

2009-07-09T01:18:00.002+08:00

Today my day have so critic.
Yeah! Suppose to celebrate my birthday.
but sadly everything happen to be NONE.
im so glad that some of them remember my birthday.
people who are so close to me, i doesnt get any wish from them.
Nahhh, its all happen and sometimes people are plan busy with life.
Today what i did was...
i have no plan today.
everything is busy with their stuff.
so i celebrate my birthday ALONE by spending my own time at town.
its sound so weird to some people.
but i was expecting someone to be there for me. and put a smile on my face on this special day for me.
but everything happen to be such a sad ending.
i walk down the street with iPOD on. Facing the Floor like waiting something to happen. so sit around taka and chilled alone.
so while chilling. i texting HER. but... Nahhh i have nothing to say about. );
so back home and writing this blog,about how i feel for my 18th birthday.
Thanks for everyone,for the birthday wishes.

PS: YOU know that how much i MISS u now. );

2009-07-08T01:51:00.002+08:00

i was expecting HER to be the FIRST person to CALL or TEXT my mobile.
but everything happen to be a false hope.
im still waiting for her calls. );
What a disappointed Birthday i have.

PS: ROAR,i wish you will be there watching me, blowing all my candles.

2009-07-04T18:42:00.003+08:00

since i have nothing to do now.
i just wanna get things right here.
for people who doesn't get to know me well.
this is the post i gonna write everything outs.

My life have been very busy this couple of days.
sometimes i don't even have time to update my blog
and other type of cyber connection thingy.
If you think, that i'm making too much friends or start knowing some girls in the internet. Booooo~
you all are wrong.
i'm serious have no time to entertain all this stalker or stranger in the cyber.
What i have now,
my bestfriend.
my family.
my cousins.
and my team mates.

That is all i have now.
i've delete friendster and tagged.
How Awesome was that?
fair enough for all of you? who are plain jealous and worry,that i gonna steal your love ones. Boooo~
People do came and GO.
its all depends how you cherish and treasure that people.
What i have now, is only my Blog and my facebook.
i prefer facebook cos, it seem safe to make friends. and it much more easier.
rather than friendster and tagged. it seem like, the way finding friends are way to desperate. i'm sorry cyber people. (:

People might thinking...
Why am i still single...
the reasons why,
I've been going through so much relationship.
not even one treasure it. Unless i've found someone that truly understand me well.
maybe there's a time i will go through again. but everything is a fate.
i wanna apologies to all the people, if i do hurts you people.
cos putting hope on me are totally useless.
i have many things need to be focus and getting serious.
my studies and even my training.
everything pack my schedule.
sometimes its hard for me to spend my weekends.

To Lily,
first of all you are such a good girl to me. i always get things wrong towards you. but you already prove me that you are one sincere women. even your ex,(insert name)told me that you are such good and sincere girl to be with. i might be stupid cos being with you is such so wonderful for me. im sorry to make you feel so disappointing every of my words spoken to you. im here wanna apologies for everything what i've done to you. i hope you will someone much better in future.
i believe in you.

To Hidayatullah,
my dearest good friend or so call bestfriend. i found her lately this month. she is new in my life. but make such a huge impact to me. she is my bestfriend,girlfriend(Natassia). its all happen coincidence. i've have been by her side all this while. even she is there supporting me for my inter grasio and national silat competition. even all the problem that we go through happen to be my fault. Giving you so much hope. We just know each other for short time of period.
its too fast for the love to happen. maybe its a crush like my last ex does.
you, yourself know and i already explain to you everything that i can't face another relationship right now. its too early aites. im sorry.
You do have the looks and heart. i've heard many stuff about you. truly, what i heard about you are all the people who likes you more den what i need from you.
you have the everything that guys want ida... i have nothing to worry. people do came and go. and first of all you just break-up with your boyfriend lately this month. remember? and used to crush on somebody right? before you welcome me to your life? remember? you have nothing to rush. that all the time and spend your time without someone whom you are close to. and remember! you have my bestfriend(natassia) who is such so caring. (: ALL THE BEST FOR INTER GRASIO.

Charliesah,
You are Azlizan close friend. that is what she told me.
its kinda random if i post about you.
nice to know you. please take good care of my friend aites.
Nurul Azlizan! she need alot of love from you. i might not always there for her. but you will. im sorry if i keep disturbing you. its just a joke of laughter. thanks for everything. and thanks again for helping me pal.

Alfi,
HELLO! he is my silat mates. i've been sharing alot of stuff with him.
thanks for always there for me. even though i've been going tons of problems with my family. you are always there for me. you are like a family to me. thanks for guiding me,with the intensive training. you motivate me so much pal. You are my HERO! and im a ZERO! ZERO TO HERO! wachek!

Faatihah,
before i end my post, i wont leave someone who is also being there for me.
even she is busy with her jobs. we are always keep in touch. she is my laughing gas and also where i always complaint my sorrow with. i've know her for almost a year plus. along the journey, she never failed to put a smile on my face. SWEET!
even i don't get the time to meet her quite often. she is always close to me.
she is my everything to me now. Where's my ICE CREAM? Where's my Burger Ramlee?
Where's my Marina Barrage?

2009-07-04T15:59:00.002+08:00

Hello People.
i just go back from yishun lately this morning.
having training at masjid darul makmur.
kinda bored training. cos all pesilat are pre junior. (:

Last night was Awesome.
going to Gombak training.
everything welcome with a smile on their face.
its kinda weird going to other people training ground.
but i love exposure.
so meeting jumaili. im sorry for being late always.
next time it wont be a late again. Cheers.
so sleep over at alfi's crib.
everything was fun staying over at his place.

Nothing much about today plan.
jumaili plan for an outing. Booooo~
but not yet confirm. so maybe will be staying at home.
or having dinner with family later,
so will update soon.

To Guest,
Hey thanks for the tag at my blog.
im here just wanna say thankful cos you are plain jealous.
don't even know about myself wanna tell the whole world about me.
cos i don't give a damn thing. its normal for me.
Nahhhh SPAMMERS! SPAMMERS! SPAMMERS!
its a normal thing in blog.
there not such good spammers i've found.
too bad to a loser like u Guest.
Please put down your name, cos you are such a coward.

2009-07-03T01:43:00.005+08:00

Hello earth link.
Nothing much today.
i feel like im dreaming now.
as i was playing my com.
someone text me. out-of-sudden, i should say.
Hmmm... so we meet up and she wanna share something personal with me.
everything goes smoothly. Laughter and giggling. (:
having my Supper with her.
as we used to be having it.
our laksa maggie. (:
lama uh tak makan maggie. Weeeee...
off back home.

To Shasya Kental
HEY! im sorry if i leave you on msn just like that.
i was kinda rush cos have to meet someone.
swear God my msn sort2. BoooOo~
Thanks for posting me at your blog.
Even though you rarely chat with me.
so damn fast you already bonding with fieee huh?!
Wah liao. play cheat lor YOU.
You always welcome k SEPET MASAM! (:

2009-07-02T16:51:00.004+08:00

Hey People.
one thing. im terribly bored right now.
due to my sickness.seriously talking,my face pecah to the max.
this is all because of my fever and flu.
my body temperature is high,and my face do look pale right now.
people who plan to go out today wit fieee. im sorry everything happen to be cancel.
someone wake me up with a surprise.
my handphone already gone case. Wooooo~
due to my prepaid is low.
Your One message do really make a big impact to me. (:

2009-07-01T15:50:00.003+08:00

Hello People.
im sorry for not updating my blog.
Wooooo~
people might be thinking why there someone going through my blogger.
that's my bekbek who just log in into my blog.
she have been MIA for around 1 month plus.
all because of her boyfriend. i understand what she have to go through.
so she feel like blogging about me here.
thanks CHIQKA B.

im sick! terribly sick.
due to Flu and Fever.
i have no mood of getting my ass out of my room.
sit at the corner of my bed,waiting for someone to text me.<3
im still strong waiting for her text.
left a week! and its my birthday. i dont know, and i would like my mum to organize some birthday party for me. but i don't even know who would i invite.

I want this for my Birthday.<3

Letter From Chiqka !

2009-06-29T02:31:00.002+08:00

To : Fieee , My Bekbek !
From : Chiqka B. , Your Ultimate Bestf. !

Subject : Misya !

Hello Fieee ! I bet you are wondering why I'd ask for your account , right ?! You don't bedek with me . Heh . The truth is , I MISS YOU ! Like a serious hell lots . When was the last time we ever met and hang ? Or when was the last time we ever talked ? Ehmagawd ! The status of Bekbek is like freaking M.I.A. . -.- !

Anyways , I want to say that you are an awesome boy . Boy because you haven't enlisted for N.S. , yet . Be patience . Hahah . Ermm - I know you are pretty bumped about the competition , but y'know what ? You are still the outermost best for me . Who would go through such tough (and somehow , I find it ridiculous) trainings , just to get through a competition so tough ? Okay , I find myself being so ironic : Competitions are meant to be tough because if it is easy , it wouldn't be a competition . Get me ?!

Good news is , you made your people (I define people as those who were with you all the way , like your supporters and friends and whoever) proud and happy of you . Especially me ! It is because , I never did want to be in such competition because I don't think I like to see the bruises on me . Hahah . Shut up ; I know that if we want to learn martial arts , we ought to risk ourself to such bruises . But somehow , not this girl .

&I am very sorry for not attending to any of your match . Frankly speaking , I am now a very busy girl who has to be booked in advance . I guess you already know what is happening between stupid dickhead Badrulini and I . So , the drama continues .

But one thing for sure is that I prayed to God that you will always be safe . See , no matter how hard it is for me to contact you (or otherwise) , I still remember you . Like - How can I ever forget about you ? My [insert word] boy who cheers me up whenever I'm down with Boyf. and the one who gives advice that he doesn't take it . Hahah ! Also , the one who is fickle-minded about his love life .

If I had all the time in the world , I would brag about you but right now , I'm busy with my personal matters . Therefore , the whole post concludes that I freakingly miss you . &On the other hand , isn't your birthday around the corner ? July is drawing near and I bet someone is happy that he will be finally legal . Fieee , you wait and see . A year later , I'll be your age and you'd be old . Hehe . But , like the M&M's say : ' Old at age , young at heart . ' . Ps , I totally agree to what they have to say .

One example . Try watching Style By Jury . You can see all the oldies who are trying to be like the youngsters who have gone wild . Hahah . &How mean can I be ?! Once in a while , its okay . But , you know I know . With that said , I remembered that Kids' Central have a saying that goes something like this : ' There's a kid in me ! ' .

Enough said cause I think this post is already long enough with , me , talking A.L.O.T. ! Dear Fieee , one thing I really miss , is the bitching moments we had while viewing stupid-yet-ugly peoples' blog . Remember ?! Well , you take care now . Stop smiling , already . As always , you will always be my [insert word] boy ! Don't act dumb with me cause you typically know what I am saying . Luvya !

xoxo ,
Chiqka B.

2009-06-26T19:23:00.006+08:00

You changed my world with a blink of an eye
That is something that I can not deny
You put my soul from worst to best
That is why I treasure you my dearest Roar.

You just don't know what you have done for me
You even pushed me to the best that I can be
You really are an angel sent from above
To take care of me and shower with love

When I'm with you I will not cry even a single a tear
And your touch have chased away all of my fear
You have given me a life that I could live worthwhile
It is even better everytime you smile

It so magical those things you've made
To bring back my faith that almost fade
Now my life is a dream come true
It all began when I was loved by you

Now I have found what I am looking for
It's you and your love and nothing more
Co'z you have given me this feeling of contentment
In my life something I've never felt

I wish I could talk 'til the end of day
But now I'm running out of things to say
So I'll end by the line you already know
'I LOVE YOU' more than what I could show

PS: This Music Video i dedicate it to my LOVE.

2009-06-24T15:27:00.000+08:00

Hello Readers.
Last night i was out alone.
i feel like giving myself a break for the time being since its a june holidays for me.
im OUTS of the competition. still feelings down with my results.
so im outs to town alone. Everyone is busy with their stuff and carrer.
so i plan on my own.
going window shopping at first.
after reaching town. i started to text Tya.
texting her. and she plan for a meet-up.
since im out alone. there's someone who i willing to accompany me to go shopping.
so i fetch her at Paragon and off took the bus to Suntec. Since Hidayatullah is working there. So straight heading to GAP outlet. Its kinda Cute to see Tya face choosing the best Tee-Shirt that suite me. HAHAHHA!
U choose couple of shirts. so i please to Tya and choose the best for me. Since this is the first shopping outing with Tya. I wanna make this the most memorial things with her.
She keep saying.

TYA: "fiee... are you REALLY REALLY REALLY like this shirt?"
FIEE: "YES TYA! i REALLY REALLY REALLY LIKE THIS SHIRT."
TYA: ( Tya show me a sweet smile ) :)

after buying GAP Tee-shirt.
off to FOX and look around. since Tya are finding some jeans for herself.
Later back then, Hidayatullah saw me and shout my name.
BooooO~ TYA make new friend wit Ida... (:

after walking around Suntec.
off we go to Marina Square.
Now her turn to go shopping. since i already grap mine stuff.
Everything cant stop her eyes on every dress.
Im just there giving comment to her. Since she already suite for me the best fits.
so its my turn. i laugh inside me. seeing she wearing this whatever dress at MANGO.
HAHAHAHHA! so the WOW! Lawa uh! but so the Senior Citizen seh. (;
den off to Macdonald.
and accompany her eat. Kecian uh! after work accompany me. yet she HUNGRY AND DUE her TIRENESS.

YOU SEE! HOW SWEET FAATIHAH IS! <3
NO GAIN NO COMPLAINT!
Too bad she already Complaint to me everything.
HAHAHAH!
Never failed to share and complaint to me.
I know you MISS complaining.

Off back home.
taking the train.
and say Goodbye.
Hope she punctual to work today.

PS: im really really into you.

2009-06-22T14:41:00.002+08:00

Last night is suppose to be my biggest night of the year.
but sadly everything seem different after lose to poobalen last night.
im sorry to all my grasio mates and i've tried my best in the competition.
it seem dissapointing. but this is my first time playing for national competition for the senior catagory. maybe im weak due of energy. i must always be prepare. everything do face a failer. but i wont ever give up for another challenge next year.
i promise i will give my best for my PSK 2010.

im so proud happy that, my grasio mates and my family member do spend their time coming down and watch me fight. even though they are busy with their stuff.
thanks and well appeciate to the people who are always there for me and guide me during the training.

last night when to pasir ris park and meet manto family. going wit ida and tashaa.
everything goes prefectly perfect.
i need plenty of energy food and rest too.
going to yishun later for training.

PS: POPEYE.

2009-06-19T23:20:00.002+08:00

i juz came back from training.
after my training, meet my parents and accompany them. having their dinner together.
so we having our dinner at nearby my Ex Crib.
so i just keep quiet as their having my dinner.
cos i cant eat alot. But im staving looking at my dad nasi ayam.
so i juz be patience till my competition are over.

Someone told me that,she wanna bring me to this special place where she loved the most.
im still looking forward for that.
You know the public don't know yaw!

im having my competition tomorrow noon.
by i will be fighting on sunday late noon.
i need to lose some weight yaw!
im still working so hard running and doing some gyming.
if u wanna see me in action.
please text me before you go.
i will give you my timing when i will be fighting.
venue is at Bedok Sports Hall,near Persisi.
ticket for adults will be 5 bucks,and child will be 3 bucks.
thanks for supporting.

PS: I miss you so.

2009-06-19T02:16:00.002+08:00

Hello people!
this is my only free time i have now.
being busy with training cos competition is juz around the corner.
i just need to push myself up and cope with the training.
Sorry if i have not being contacting some of my besties cos of some reasons.
im really-really sorry guys.

i achieve my GOAL!
Weeeee! totally satisfied with my weight now.
im playing CLASS B, for my incoming PSK.
tomorrow will be going to jalan besar to take my stuff and weighing.

maybe heading to town.
Jogging later at 3am.

PS: i started to miss someone now.

2009-06-15T02:21:00.003+08:00

WOW! My One and Only TYA.
No One could take her place i swear!
At Last she Msn-ing with me.
it have been so long i doesnt joke around
and have our own conversation. Weeee! <3

2009-06-14T22:03:00.003+08:00

You all might wonder who is this new girl.
she is my bestie girlfriend.
Nattasia bestfriend.
Her name is Hidayatullah aka Ida.
Booooo~
I used to ignore her and pretend not seeing her all the time.
i might sound arrogant and action.
but i dont even give a damn thing cos im traumatise wit women.
thanks to my Nattasia!
I might be a loner. and tashaa give me a new friend in silat. She is so supportive 2 me. even my match she is there for me. Thanks IDA.

They are my Silat Mates and also a Good Friend of mine.
WE TRAINING TOGETHER! WE SPREAD RUMOURS TOGETHER! (:

PS: I MISS my ROAR,No matter How far we were.

2009-06-13T14:15:00.003+08:00

Waiting that doesnt worth anything.

2009-06-10T15:41:00.003+08:00

Hello Virgin People!

Last night was terrible plain tired.
off from Alfi's Crib around 10 plus in the morning.
cos in the noon im having my PSK training at pasir ris park.
Dammit! i know its so damn far. What do to. must die2 train more lor.
supposely i need 2 meet up wit Nattasia but sadly we misunderstanding about the
meeting up due to my prepaid which is so damn low. HAHAHAHA!

So proces to Pasir ris park wit Atiq,Khai and Shakir.
We were late. Nasib baik! Uncle Sheik tak marah kita uh. Woooooo~
we run around pasir ris park and i saw my ex-classmate Azri. (:
after training, everyone have the shower and off heading back to paris ris mrt wit
Shakir,Khai,Fazlin,Aelfira and Natassia.
den everyone go separated ways. so i die2 must follow natassia cos we need to me Ida.
Pity Ida for waiting for us for so long. Awwwww~
so we heading to Natassia Cribs.
cos she wanna shower. Have some privacy with ida for a momemnt. LOVED.
since natassia is away showering.
after waiting for nattasia. off we go from her cribs and when back to persisi to
support mantoi playing his takraw tournament.
HAHAHAH! he done great Boooooo!

after watching his takraw match. Off to go 2 INSPIRASI and have my favourite Soto Ayam.
i miss my moment there. Tons of memories happen at the stall.
used 2 be my dinner and lunch there. everytime i when back from my national training. that is the place where i always loiter wit my mates.
i feel like going back to the team. Since it have be so long i have not train wit them. Booooo~
after having our dinner there. we go separate ways.
and home sweet home.
chat wit Tya at msn for a moment.
and off to sleep.
i skip my training today.
im sick at home.
asthma attack people!

2009-06-06T02:14:00.002+08:00

This Post is for my BFF, TYA.
its have been such some time we have not chat with each other.
Due to my busy and your current job now.
maybe we have a long journey to go.
im always here for u TYA.
even though how hard our life are.

PS: No One could take your place.

Friends Forever

2009-06-06T01:41:00.000+08:00

2009-06-05T23:01:00.002+08:00

2009-05-29T14:58:00.001+08:00

Happy Birthday to NATASSIA ROSELLINI

Nothing i see from you.

2009-05-29T01:22:00.004+08:00

Hello guys!

im just don't know what im thinking right now.
lately today.I've been thinking of you. for no reasons.
class was bored. even my class advisor shout told me to stop daydream in class and pay more attention.

im still waiting 4 her 2 text me.
but everything is just a false hope.
now i understand what's my status now.
im sick and tired finding and too caring about people.
people doesn't seem care if i really in need.
just don't bother about what is happening in the past.
im so sorry. i apologised for what i've done.

maybe i prefer we to be this way.
im happy with my life now.
its not you who seem to be putting hope on me.
but everything happen to be ME.
ME NOT YOU.
Just enjoy your life.
to whom this post might be concern. You know who you are.
don't text me and don't call my mobile if you really need me.
A SIMPLE SINGLE MESSAGE to me do really mean alot to me. but i receive NONE from you. even a MISSED CALL?

To All my Supporters:
I will be having my fight this Sunday at Jalan Besar CC,8:30pm.
it's easy to get there. Just alight at Lavender and turn left and u can see the place. I qualified for Simei Final.
I hope to see you guys there. I do really need your support my LOVE.

MUST CAME:
1) TYA
2) MY Parents <3
3) Khuz and the geng
4) Aidil Azmi and the geng
5) Sammie
6) Jermine
7) Lily Lee
8) Nida Amalina
9) Mira Mary
10)Hisham and the geng

LOVE only for YOU.

2009-05-26T18:08:00.002+08:00

Hello Readers!
i share with you guys.
im NOT attached to anyone yet right now.
just get that in mind.
i need my time now.
plenty of stuff need 2 be done.
i appeciate every single of my bestie.

maybe people are getting the wrong way.
im sorry guys.
please stop asking me if im attached or not.
AND IM TELLING THIS FOR THE LAST TIME.
IM NOT ATTACHED TO ANYONE NOW.

Lets get things personal here.
schools,training,family and friends.
thats is my life now.

i already shower wit love by them.
so i dun need an extra love anymore.
cos it might hurts me one day.
cos till now, no one yet understand me that deep.
So far.. NONE of them
so dont waste your time searching for clues or match-make me wit other people.
cos my line is clear.

i have enough of all this.
GET A LIFE PEOPLE!
LOVE YOUR LOVE ONES.
BEFORE THEY ARE GONE.

Don't Ever Give up

2009-05-24T23:49:00.002+08:00

Sorry if i block my blog.
BOOOOO~
HAHAHAH!
im just busy with school projects and my silat thingy.
ALL THE BEST TO GRASIO CHONG PANG ZONE 2.

im glad with team performers.
They done they best to win as many GOLDs as they can.
Cos my coach,cik imah and cik adi have putting so much work and training to us.
So this is the time we must prove to them that we can do it.
im sad that my class have only 3 competitors. DAMN SAD!
yeah! cos its not fun having less people in our category.
im Firdaus Hassan, Class D for grasio.
BETTER REMEMBER THAT PEOPLE!
i will tried my best not to dissappoint my friends and coaches.

Its have been 2 days i have not sleep so well.
thinking day and night finding ways and tips for my team.
i've been working so hard for them.
even though i spend so less time,cos i rarely go training for my club.
we are starting 2 bond back. and they are putting the trust on me.
i will be fighting at Jalan Besar CC next week saturday or sunday.
So do drop by there and support me.

after aiming for my gold at inter grasio.
i need 2 lose down another 5 more kilo, to represent my club,grasio, for PSK.
im in class B! must stay focus.
i wish all the best to all participates.

2009-05-19T14:16:00.007+08:00

Hello Earthlink.
I might fall in love.
but i don't know how long this could stand.
Cos nothing could change my mind.
im someone. who failed in love always.
People might always judge me, for who i am.
but i don't give a damn thing.
i hope u cheris every moment with me.
IM LOVED.

2009-05-18T01:38:00.001+08:00

NO FRIENDSTER
NO TAGGED
NO HI-5
NO FACEBOOK.

ONLY BLOGGER!

So people, now i don't have many connection aites.
im sick and tired already.
im happy with my friends right now.
Boooo! wanna keep in touch?
tag my shoutmix!

Its better! then making enemies. FRIENDS ARE LOVED