Monday, December 6, 2010
{ 1:02 AM }
i come to your grave everyday...
to talk to you.
people tell me you can't hear me because your gone.
i just tell them you might be gone in their eyes but not in mine
because your still in my heart
and you will always be...
i cry when i think of you
but people ask me why....
i just tell them
how i feel about you and that
i still love you and that
and i miss you so much..
But people just tell me
there is no point
in still loving you
because your gone
and you will never be coming back
and i agree with them
you are gone
but you will never
be forgotten and one day
we will meet again
i promise.....
i pray to God every night
asking him to keep you safe
and i talk to him about meeting you again
i wanted to kill myself
just so i could see your face again in HEAVEN
but then i knew you wouldn't want me to do that
i try to be happy
but i can't when i
know that i won't
hear your voice for a long time
i always thought i could live without you
but i really feel i can't
i never thought you would have left me
my mum say you never left me,
God just needed an angel
i ask God can i be her next angel so i can be with you...
but he never replies
i even ask God,WHY...
why did he have to take you
and make me feel hurt so much
i don't think anyone really knows how
much it hurts to be missing you
i hate you not being around
i wish i could even see you one last time...
so i could say goodbye
no one understands me anymore
no one understands that i will always love you..
i never knew this would have happened
NO ONE DID...
i wish that...
that i could look back on the good times with you
but that has all gone
everything has change
and even thinking about it makes me want to cry
cry so much...
but my mum tells me not to cry
she told,you were looking over me and you wouldn't
want me to cry...
i tell her i'm sorry
all i can do is...cry...
she told me i could look back
at the good memories
but i said i can't do
that without her
because i need her to be with me
while we look back
and then she says why
so i replied i need
to see her smile and
feel her touch while
we smile together and look at the good memories
then mum said,why don't you tell me and her the good memories
but then i tell her i wish i could tell HER
she told me i can because you will always be there with me
then she said you would never give up on me cos you love me to much
and i love you....
PS: i promise i will find a new replace in my heart. No one could replace HER.♥
Labels: im still faithful with you.